Forget the Reckless Things We´ve Done

As I´ve said before on this thing it isn´t often that you get a chance to start over.

Yes life is full of second chances, but a completely new chance is something that only happens very rarely.

Books are often full of scenes with images of being reborn, or of rites of passage that make the character stronger or whatever. I don´t think life is like that. I don´t think that everything changes at once. Well...

I don´t think. I know.

I thought I could change everything at once. But I couldn´t. A new school, a new city...same shit. Same weakness and failure. I forgot that I had to change the person I was.

Now I have another new city and another new school. And it is NOT the same shit. It is entirely shit free. I have changed.

For so long I´ve lived with a fear of what I might become. I have always been afraid of getting stuck or waxing myself into a corner. Which is ironic because for so long I was stuck. In the shit.

Now I am not stuck. I´m running like a damned antelope. And I know where I am going.

All of that was my way of saying that I am incredibly happy with my life. I felt like I should let you all know.

Oh and that I haven´t met someone new. But, to steal more song lyrics, it feels just like I´m falling for the first time. And I´ve been waiting so long to fall.

Night. Merry Christmas, Happy New Year. Make this one better.

_Todd