Forget the Reckless Things We´ve Done

As I´ve said before on this thing it isn´t often that you get a chance to start over.

Yes life is full of second chances, but a completely new chance is something that only happens very rarely.

Books are often full of scenes with images of being reborn, or of rites of passage that make the character stronger or whatever. I don´t think life is like that. I don´t think that everything changes at once. Well...

I don´t think. I know.

I thought I could change everything at once. But I couldn´t. A new school, a new city...same shit. Same weakness and failure. I forgot that I had to change the person I was.

Now I have another new city and another new school. And it is NOT the same shit. It is entirely shit free. I have changed.

For so long I´ve lived with a fear of what I might become. I have always been afraid of getting stuck or waxing myself into a corner. Which is ironic because for so long I was stuck. In the shit.

Now I am not stuck. I´m running like a damned antelope. And I know where I am going.

All of that was my way of saying that I am incredibly happy with my life. I felt like I should let you all know.

Oh and that I haven´t met someone new. But, to steal more song lyrics, it feels just like I´m falling for the first time. And I´ve been waiting so long to fall.

Night. Merry Christmas, Happy New Year. Make this one better.

_Todd

I have to speculate

So I've decided that Finals week is the new Dead week. Seriously. Lets look at last week.

Monday: Rough Draft of paper due.
Tuesday: Final Group Project for H340 - 15 page written report plus 20 minute oral presentation.
Wednesday: N102 Final Group Project - 22- page written report.
Thursday - Q200 Final Group Project Due - 10 minute presentation. Q200 Final Reflection and Portfolio due. H340 final reflection due.
Friday - Final L204 paper due - 7 pages.

Ugh. I know I'm not in what most would consider a hard major but that was a rough week. And yes it's only one week, but still...give me a little credit.

So that was my 'Dead' week. My Finals week is about 100 times easier and less stressful. I am helped by the fact that I am a good test taker, and also by the fact that I have done well this semester and my finals were not make or break for me.

On that subject, I just wanted to say that I pretty much rocked this semester and that I cannot say how good it feels. Some of you (actually, I have no idea if anyone reads this anymore) know about how much I have struggled with college and life up to this point. So this semester has been a complete rebirth for me. I am like...I would say that I most resemble Harry at the end of everything in Book Seven. I'd had enough trouble already and am ready for things to go well for me.

I just hope I can make it through spring. No...wait, that's wrong.

I will make it through spring and be just as bad ass as I was this semester. There.

Anyway, I have a great Christmas Break in front of me. I get to see Carrie and Luis' new house, Amanda in her last month of pregnancy, and spend (hopefully) three weekends in a row with someone amazing and pretty.

And the usual Columbus gathering of friends and what not.


_Todd